Well, I am in New Mexico sitting on my bed for the next two months and a few days. This is not going to be a long post tonight, but it may turn out differently.
I have not spent the time needed in the Word of God today. I started to read some on my flight from Dallas to El Paso, but I had to put it up because we were preparing early to land, I guess due to storms around us. I probably could have kept it out a little longer and held it in my lap than on the little pull-down table in front of me, but I didn’t. That may have been the flesh in me talking. I was interested in what I was reading. I decided to read through Nehemiah after hearing Mr. Tejada (a Sunday School Teacher of mine and Bible study leader) talk about it. He said it was a book for leaders and I think I can agree from what I have heard of it and read so far.
Although I have not read much Scripture today, I think I still have felt God today. I have had my battles with the flesh today, as do we all, but this seems to be a spike in it. That may be due to me losing some of my focus off God. Actually, that is one reason. No maybe about it. But another contributing factor to it is probably me and thinking. That is not always good for me. Thank goodness the battle got better though later tonight. I had to make a decision in my mind for what I know is right and stand up for it. It helped. It helped put my focus back on God some.
I have also learned a little something about being selfless. If you remember, I wanted this time here in New Mexico to be a time to where I learn to deny myself. Well, earlier today when I was talking with Barbara (my PaPa’s new wife) about what I would be doing here, I became a little disappointed because I thought I was going to be doing a little more in leading worship than just for younger kids. I realized that what I was thinking was not selfless. I need to do what they have for me to do and not be selfish in wanting more, because that is what I want. Notice “what I want”. I was and still maybe am being selfish in wanting to have more leadership roles and other ones that give me recognition.
Tomorrow we are going to PaPa’s church that he pastors in Playas. It is small, but so is the town. Actually, from what I found out today, they are doing pretty good it seems in numbers if you consider how many people live in that town, which is only about maybe 150. We will see how the service goes tomorrow. This will be my first time going to the church service in Playas. It’ll be a good drive there. I may take the wheel some of the time to give PaPa a break. He gets to hear my contemporary Christian music tomorrow. :) Well, more than he has lately possibly. Ha ha!
Pray for me please, that God will keep me in His Will and keep my heart moldable.
-Donny
